Exhaustion sets in

I'm working eight hour days, and studying a chapter when I get home. Which means copying out said chapter word for word by hand, because I learned with Covenant Players that's the way to get information to stick in my brain. So today I studied for three and a half hours, took the end of chapter quiz, and got another 100%. What I don't understand is how Squirreltail can do this. He works eight and a half hour nights, goes into college, is in class all day, comes home, does homework and studies, and sleeps for about four hours- and then repeats the process.

I don't understand it. I really don't. I've found someone that I respect as much as my mom, in terms of sheer tenacity and endurance.

Eight days until he's down here. Fifteen days until I'm up there.

I'm slightly freaking out. I have enough money for a security deposit and the first month's rent or the securty deposit and a car.

Not enough money for both.

So I'm afraid that I'm going to have to opt for the car, because it's slightly more immediate. I need to pass the driver's test and get my license and be able to drive myself around. And if I can't pay rent... well, I can live in the car if worse comes to worse. Squirreltail's offered to pay my rent if I need it. I don't want to take him up on it- I need to prove that I really can function by myself.

I'm exhausted.