Various things

[sroni]

Energy is still WAY low. I finally told CP that I don’t think I can come back this mission; if I can, I will call them, and head out there. But count me out, unless I say otherwise. Because I can’t go through the stress and guilt of trying to get better, planning on coming back, and then having to call and say, “I can’t.”

For a while there, I was worshiping the gods of the toilet again. I finally stopped. But I stopped because I stopped eating.

I’m now up to one and a half meals a day. At least it’s solid food, and I am keeping it down.

Standing up and walking and not falling over? Also an issue.

Honestly, the worst part is the lack of energy. I just have none. I’m on the computer a lot, but it’s because it doesn’t take a lot of energy to sit at the computer and not move. Oh, the feeling of not moving … It’s great.

Because I’m on the computer a lot, I’ve gotten involved in an online RPG. First time I’ve ever done RP, and I’m discovering that I LOVE it. It’s a Stargate RP. If anyone’s interested, it’s at www.stargategamingclan.com/forum. If you want to join, I’d be willing to walk you through the application process.

Vote for McCain and Palin.

That is all.

**Edit**

I went to the doc today. I'm now on anti-depressants that help with the effects of fibromyalgia. Which is one of the things my mom has.

Comments

[skarman.livejournal.com]

Just remember that what is important, is YOU. The most important thing is for you to get better, not go out there on the road and get even worse. You'll be doing no one a favor, least of all yourself. So take the time and built up your strength. *sends you virtual hugs*

[sroni.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* Thanks.

That's the conclusion I finally came to; that I wouldn't be helpful to anyone by being there, if all I was doing was sleeping and yarfing.

[draconin.livejournal.com]

Hope you feel better soon. Sounds like you're having a really rough time. Don't feel guilty about telling CP you're out - there are times when you *must* think of yourself first and this is definitely one of them by the sounds of things.

[sroni.livejournal.com]

I usually put other people first in my priorities. So this is a new one for me, when I'm having to put myself first.