I Did a Thing

[sroni]

It's been forever, I know. Like, forever. I'm mostly okay. We're in a new flat, which is definitely nice, trying to do some writing, mostly failing at that but gonna keep trying.

Dealing with some health issues. I'll be doing really well and then I tank hard, and can barely function, and then I'll get back to doing well. The last couple weeks have been hardest; all of a sudden, I'll be walking and lose feeling in my legs. The first time it happened, I just kept walking despite not being able to feel, and managed to stay upright and keep up with Spouse-Type-Creature and his dad. The second time, not so much, and I hit the ground.

I don't really know how to describe the feeling. It's like when you were a kid and you'd kink the water hose, and the water would stop flowing, and then you'd unbend it and the water would start going again, usually in a huge gush because it had built up behind the kink. If we imagine that my spine is the water hose, I get this "pinchy" feeling in the lower part of my back, near my hips, and feeling in my legs slows to a trickle of water. And then my spine unkinks and a gush of water happens and I'm good again, until it kinks back up and we start over again.

That's not a perfect description of the feeling, but I think it communicates it well enough.

That happened last Monday (the 16th). The falling, I mean. Today, I had to walk to the same place I went on Monday, which is about two miles away. It took me 45 minutes to get there and another 45 minutes to get back, because I stopped whenever I started to get that "pinchy" feeling, because I wasn't on a time crunch and I figured it would be better to stop and stretch rather than push and possibly fall again.

I also sang the entire way and never got out of breath, which means that me being slow is due entirely to my hips and back and not do cardio issues. A month ago, I wsa going at Google Maps speed for walking, and now I was 12 minutes over that for two miles. Which is sad, but hopefully I'll get there again.

Anyway, at one point, I was thinking about my dad's remix from a couple years ago, with Vi and Pike. Man in Motion (The Free Falling Remix). And thinking about it made me realize that those two songs would actually mesh together really well.

So I did it.

It can be found here.

I am proud of it.

Comments

[velvetwhip.livejournal.com]

*hugs you* I am so sorry about what you're going through with your health. I really hope it clears up ASAP.


Gabrielle

[sroni.livejournal.com]

It's more than a little scary, because I've never had it happen before and now it's happening relatively often. The good news is, we now have insurance, and as soon as I can get my PPS number (Irish version fo the SSN, basically), I can go to the doctor.

[velvetwhip.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*


Gabrielle

[snogged.livejournal.com]

Oh gosh. That sounds very scary to experience.
*gentle hugs*

[sroni.livejournal.com]

That's definitely a word for it. Particularly because if you ever want to scare yourself, try googling symptoms. (Though I did describe it to a friend in order to ask "How do I even do a search for this as a symptom?" and her response was "YOU DON'T. YOU GO TO A DAMN DOCTOR.")

It's more confusing than anything else. If it were a weight issue, why wasn't it happening thirty pounds ago? And because I am rather overweight, I just know that I'm going to have a hard time getting a doctor to look into other reasons and not just stop at the weight as the culprit.

falling down

[(Anonymous)]

I saw your entry and I just wanted to say that if you haven't found out what it is it might be potassium levels. I hope you're doing well :B

Re: falling down

[sroni.livejournal.com]

Late reply is late, but I haven't checked my potassium levels! I'll definitely look into that!

I haven't run into that particular problem lately, though I've been attacked by dizzy spells, so hopefully whatever was the issue has fixed itself.