Hugs- I need them

[sroni]

I need a hug. Badly.

I found out that the son of good friends of mine died. I'm just kind of shellshocked. He was an autistic teenager. He fell asleep and just didn't wake up the next morning.

I don't understand.

My emotions have been haywire all day. I'll be laughing and then crying and then laughing again. Little things set me off. I started crying because I don't have a kitty. Luckily, Squirreltail knows that I'm not really crying because I don't have a kitty- I just need to cry, and my brain is choosing really random reasons to let me cry.

So. Yeah. Pray for my friends. Pray.

But can I have some hugs?

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[lwbush.livejournal.com]

Hugs sweetie. And for your friend as well.

[sroni.livejournal.com]

Thanks. They are appreciated.

At this point, every time I try to go to sleep, I start to cry. So I'm just waiting for Squirreltail to get home, so that he can hold me while I cry.

I tried to take a bath earlier to relax, and instead I just sat there. I had a book with me, I had a candle to light, all that. And I just sat there. I couldn't bring myself to care enough to pick the book up or light the candle.

If it's this bad for me, I can only imagine what my friends are going through.

[skarman.livejournal.com]

*Sends you a load of hugs*

[sroni.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'm doing better. I slept all day, and that seemed to help.

[jgracio.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

[sroni.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the hugs. They are greatly appreciated.

[barbie-arielle.livejournal.com]

SENDING YOU BIG HUGS!!

[sroni.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I slept all day, and that apparently helped. I'm feeling much more in control of myself. I wasn't able to go to my Mary Kay meeting tonight, due to exhaustion, but... it was a choice between going and crying, or staying home and not. I opted to stay home.

[ozma914.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

[sroni.livejournal.com]

*accepts* Hugs are always appreciated.

Always.

Especially right now.

I'm feeling a lot better. Slept from eight twenty until five forty. That was helpful. I'm just taking it one day at a time.

[ozma914.livejournal.com]

Sleep is good -- and taking it one day at a time is often the only way to take it.

[sroni.livejournal.com]

Sleep is good. Now I'm reading fanfiction and NOT sleeping because I saw a spider on my bed and I can't seem to convince myself that it won't come back and bite me while I sleep.

I didn't like spiders before, but ever since the Spider Bite From Hell, I've been phobic of them. Squirreltail tried to tell me that "It's more scared of you than you are of it" to which my response was "Bullshit. I'm flipping terrified of it. Phobia- an irrational and uncontrollable fear. If I could think rationally about it, or control my fear, it wouldn't be a phobia, now would it?"

[ozma914.livejournal.com]

Spiders are bad. If I saw one on my bed I've have bought enough poison to kill off every bug in a 50 square mile area.

[sroni.livejournal.com]

It got worse- a spider climbed ON me. I promptly grabbed my stuff and slept in Squirreltail's room while he was at work.